What if there's no tomorrow?

BEATRICE! happy now? Your name is here. haha. She's supposily my "laopo". -_-

I just heard something from a friend. Something came to mind immediately. What if I was that person? What if there's no tomorrow? No last word for the family. No last smile for them. How would they overcome it? How would I look dead? (maybe not that part) Life could just be so short. Imagine you walking walking walking and suddenly BOOM! Everything turns black. You totally lose consciousness. Horrible right? not to curse anybody. Thinking about it, we should really live life to the fullest. Wisely of course. We can lose anything and everything in just a blink of an eye.

After listening to what happened, although I'm already very overprotective over certain people walking alone to wherever. SORRY but I'm going to turn into a more irritating overprotective person. Good luck being restricted by me. Haha. WHAT!? You'll never know if you're gonna die. Better be safe than sorry. Not that I'm afraid to die. But still. Spare my life for more wonderful things to come. =D

CAUTION
To everyone else. Watch for cars when you cross the blardeee dangerous and harmful roads with stupid brainless, blind drivers driving on them. Sometimes it's the drivers. Sometimes it's our fault. So for the love of ___ please do not be blind,blur and stupid while crossing roads. You're risking your life.

2008 , many incidents. Unfortunately. sigh. To YOU. Get well soon. God bless you!

- Zenn

Holidayss!!!

Happy us. We have a week of holiday. Wooohoooooo! School today was okay. Many teachers didn't come. Brought so many books for no reason. My "grandchildren" -_- (yin ling and poh wei) brought bread for me. They love me. RIGHT?! One was chocolate banana and the other was chocolate vanilla. Both tasted good. :)

Oh. Have you people watched money no enough part two?

This show. Which I thought was supposed to be a comedy made me cry twice. :x Highly recommended for people who do not plan to take care of your lovely parents when they get older. Go screw yourselves. haha.

That's all for this post. Nothing interesting to blog about. So, Byeee!

- zenn

Devistated much

Haunted , hunted, found, in deep shyt , terrible feelings, sad, angry , dissapointed. Name all the emotions you can think off... yeah, thats what gotten into me! Well, not only i've been through WONDERS like this the whole year, Im through with all this junks haunting me and making my hair fall and making my looks get older by the days. Oh well, and that is what we call life. Currently in some no fat food eating thingy and trying to get those funky big useless piece of fat junks from my ridiculous abnormal body! HAHA. Even though its hard. BUT ITS GOOD FOR ME. :D ! I shall just pray and hope for results end of the month. Hope it works.. If it ever will?


Exams around the corner, no books have been touched by me, no revisions .WOOHOO and promise on ' mum I'll pass all my subjects lah haiyo, dont worry' . Guess that promise will nvr come true. sorry. HAHA. I dont know why , i dont know how. Im just sick and tired of the same things happening. Same routines i do everyday at home. Everything is just the same. Imagine if world doesn't exsist I wonder what on earth am I? Nah, now im just blabbering and talking craps. forgive me! XD.

Lastly,Happy Bday CheahPohWei (:

xoxo:Amanda<3

I provided dinner.

Today, went to BU3 for some event my mom had to perform for. While waiting for her performance, my sister, karr nn and I were busy feeding mosquitoes. We were their dinner. Hate mosquitoes. Saturdays suck to the max. All I do is laze around and get fat. There's really nothing to do. Studying is a choice but nothing would go into my brain as I'm thinking bout something else. All my attention's diverted. Come to thinking bout how much I use my brain, it ain't that little. It has been working quite a lot lately. Maybe even too much? Goshh.. When that happens, it's stressful.

I'm pretty sure my parents think I'm useless. So sad right? They even say they don't know what to do to me anymore. haha. Why? Just because I spend a little more extra time on the net and on my phone than on books. (Please understand that it's not that I don't want to.) They also say I'm overconfident. BUT they sometimes say I'm lack of confidence that's why I'm slacking. Oh well. However hurtful, I still have to listen. Disadvantage of understanding almost every language they speak. -_-

Oh! This year's lantern festival is so not lantern festival. I'm writing about this because I just went for an event about this. NO lanterns?! NO candles?! NO people walking around with lanterns?! NO burning lanterns and candles and candle boxes?! What is this?! WHERE did the tradition go?! I said I want to get lanterns for the fun of it, and guess what?! One family member of mine called me crazy. If people are saying that to their children when they want lanterns, I guess that's why. Also, battery operated lanterns or toys (whatever they should be called) are just plain annoying. Soon, people will even forget on what date this festival is. Good thing I didn't forget this time. Tons of mooncake in my house. Have to bring back my lantern festival semangat next year. Wonder if the shops would still sell paper lanterns and candles that would actually light up. Some don't. Really.


If you readers are wondering why am I bragging bout stuff like that, it's because I'm bored. Shall go fill my time with sleep. It's only 12. sighh. So early. O.O I've a bruise on my knuckle. I wonder why. haha.

Retarded I am right at this moment,
- Zenn (:

I like this picture. Taken the other day when people were walking to 7eleven from Hui Xian's place.

A WALK TO REMEMBER (:

What the crap?

Gosh. School for 3 hours is really a waste of time. Each period is only for twenty-five minutes? Boring. Very boring. Not the point of this post. haha.

I sometimes wonder why and how am I involved in this particular something. Why am I getting blamed? Do I look so much like a bitch (this blog name says the bitches,not necessarily a real bitch you know) that would do something like that? Am I capable of doing something like that? WHY would I do something like that? There isn't a point for me to. AND I don't want to. -_-

I can't care less if people want to talk about me. I really don't care. Just don't blame me for shit ass reasons. If you want, come talk to me, I'll make it so clear to you that you will think that you're stupid for thinking so much till you get the idea of even blaming me. I'm so so so far away from being connected to this. So, the question is how am I connected to this? Hate me? I DON"T CARE! It's amazing that the creativity of your imagination can go to that extend.

Not wanting to mention any names. This is for public reading. I'm being gay. xD

I feel damn lazy to blog actually. Just had to let those words out of my brain. Feel better now.

- zenn

I can say today is 'THE MOST' unluckiest day for me, wana know wad happen?

1. In tuiton SOMETHING PRIVATE HAPPEN REAL BADLY!
2. When I bought noodles and ate in Nicole's house, The sambal plastic juz went inside my mee.
3. When I was tying my hair, all my clips dropped on the floor and Nicole's clip as well.
4. When I was walking to class, the water from the air cone kena my butt , AND IT LEFT A BEAUTIFUL BIG PATCH THERE.
5. I kena cubit by my bm teacher which I dont even know what he heck I did.
6. Im going to claim my love letter by this week, I think?

AND PEOPLE JUST CALLS IT KARMA.

FULLSTOP.

AHCW<3

Pictures. and Bye bye note to miss angela.

THE CHEESE CAKE YANG AKU CINTA. =D

The Gay guys from my class. xD

Baju kurung gang? Sit Peng sesat. haha.

My Class. (2C)

2C girls.

Starbucks miss angela! Starbucks instead of school. haha.
Miss Angela, you've been the best English teacher ever.
We won't have lessons like yours anymore. ):
That's good in a way. Unique and never to be forgotten.
You've worked hard!
HOPEFULLY, there's nothing harder than teaching us Taman Sea students.
You did well teaching us anyway.
All the best in everything that's coming up.
GRADUATE AND BE THE BEST OF THE BEST.
Let us boast about learning from you before.
We'll miss you Miss Angela!
Come back and visit us when you like.
We all welcome you with open arms.
Doubt you want to hear our annoying noise anyway. xD
GOODBYE!

"This is not the end but a start of a new beginning."

-Zenn-

Get your own.

Why don't you just get your own when you can. Now you got yourself into trouble dumbass. I paid twenty bucks for soemthing. I don't mind using it to make you bleed.

On Friday was Miss Angela's last day of teaching. We're all gonna miss her very much. The cheese cake 2K bought for her was awesome! Spent almost the whole day with her. FUN! Hopefully english class tomorrow doesn't turn out a mess without her. If it doesn't turn out a mess, still class wouldn't be the same anymore. No more songs. No more Fun. No more Miss Angela. ): We'll have to start bringing our boring boring text book again. sighh....

Saturday was okay. Went for tuition. Amazingly,it was quite fun. Don't mind going again next week. Only Ann Gie, Rachel and I went but teacher didn't scold. How lucky. After that, went OneU. Mom kidnapped me. Was there from 1.30 until 4 or 5? Can't remember. My back felt like it was going to break. All I bought was a pair of slippers. I really like it though.

And today, all day since I had nothing better to do, I was thinking of this question.

Does absence make the heart grow fonder OR Out of sight,out of mind?

What do you people think? I can't get the answer to it. Haha.

Study mode has to come ON. Exams seem to be coming just so soon. October 20th? Gosh. I still remember being upstairs in 1J doing the first term examination which my results turned out like crap. Pressure. Must get good results this time. Need to slap myself into being focused on studying. Having slight distractions here and there, thinking a little too much lately about stuff I shouldn't really be worrying much about is taking my attention away from studying. In class I stare out the window and stone. Ain't gonna help me much in my results ey? Let me just hope I don't drop to a lower class. If that happens, it'll probably mean the same thing as "END OF MY LIFE".

Anyway, when I get the pictures that were taken with Miss Angela the other day, I'll post them up. Yes, I know how to. (to whoever who's wondering)

HATE SCHOOL. HATE EXAMINATIONS. HATE IT MOST WHEN RESULTS COME OUT.

- zenn

What A day!

Yeah,Like I said Day of doom = 8.9.2008!

Like a normal teenager I went to school with my ironed Baju Kurung and my tidy tied up hair which will eventually get messed up by the wind and my pink school bag filled with my so called haven-touched books! And so once I reached school , Nicole pulled me straight to the canteen and talked and said THE.TEACHER might find us and etc etc etc. I was afriad for a little bit but come to think of it, why should I? Im innocent as a baby cause I already had permission! So okay I did not really bothered. Once the bell rang, It was Miss.Angela's class. Surprisingly I was late, once I came in she said to gather up with your respective group members! Guess what ? She was about to hear our oral presentation and we did not even touch a single percent of it, and we(me,marianne,nicole) was lucky number one to present Oh well, we thinked for quite a long time on what topic to do and in the end we decided to do a roll play about not skipping school! Since we did not have enough actors we decided to join group with calvin and yi shien since sheng yong was absent! Well, for a last minute presentation not to be LC but it was kinda okay! (= After that, My heart beat faster and faster guess who came in? THE.TEACHER. And so she asked all those which were absent on friday to see her and so I went out with guts and was giggling behind her . LOL! In fact she went to every class and find those which were absent on friday as well! We lined up one row infront of the office door. The first students she wanted to met was me and Nicole! WOah .. What a day having a lecture with her! IM PURE INNOCENT I TELL YOU! ITS OKAY , GOD KNOWS!! I'll never forgive you . seriously after what you've done to me, even you know so I am innocent but you still had to do it!Wait, my revenge is waiting for you!

Oh wells, she scold and scold and scold like a freaking old lady!

But who cares, I know Im innocent and I dont hav to worry about anything!

So old white lady , you better use your brains properly, and fear me !

For that merdeka day of yours will haunt you soon (=

The end of my so-called-terrified-story!

xoxo,

amanda <3

Help me.

In the header above. Can everyone who visit this blog tell me if the "AMNZ" is green or black? I really have no idea. No idea at all. I say it's black? But some says it's green. HELP.

Anyway, about school today, Miss Angela took over the second period of Pn. Rozaini's. HURRAY! Her lecturer came to evaluate. I think it's the last evaluation? I'm not sure. In a week's time. She's gonna leave us. ): But. The good side is that her practicals are over, and hopefully she passes. Good Luck!

Didn't really study today. Sat by the window doing nothing. Talked to Jeshua and Rachel. Then suddenly, I was reminded of my dog. (X-ZI) miss him so badly that I almost cried. =X How I wish he was still here. sighh.. Anyway, he should be at a better place now. =D

The fun part was after school. Bus driver dropped us off at Sahara park and we walked to 'pasar malam'. First, I bought fried ice cream, then I bought, vegetable kuih? haha. Then i bought soya been. Enjoyed my food. Reason number one. I was freaking hungry.(puasa-ed unintentionally cause I wanted to follow Marianne and Rachel and Acap. So, I didn't eat.) Reason number two. I haven't been to pasar malam for ages. When I got there, I was like some jakoon. Wanted to buy almost everything I saw.

After pasar malam, it was only 6 o'clock. We then walked to Mobil. Bought a whole lot of sweets. I'm gonna get diabetes soon. Seriously. MENTOS IS MY BEST FRIEND. xD Better stop having so much sweets. Killing myself. Rachel bought twisties. It was 6.15 when we got out of Mobil. Walked to Sahara park again cause the bus driver told to meet there at 6.30???? When we reached the park it was still early. We sat at the pondok and ate our food. I finished my food. except for my mentos of course. Felt so so full after that. Kum Fong and Siong Yew were busy playing at the basketball court. They even broke a beer bottle? It was shattered all over the court. Being considerate as We (except for Kum Fong and Siong Yew) didn't want park users to cut themselves, we kicked the glass to the side nearing the grass. Hopefully people aren't so blind to play around that area without shoes. Ann Gie and I cam whored a little with Rachel's phone. We were bored. Bus finally came at 7? Gosh. Waited for so long.

Reached home at 7 something then rushed to bathe. After bathing it was 7.30. Quickly got ready my stuff for tuition. Obviously by rushing, I forgot to bring something. My workbook. Didn't care though.

Feel damn tired now. Had tuition in the morning. Then school. Then tuition again. Life's great. =D

ANYWAY, PEOPLE PLEASE LEAVE A COMMENT AT THE CHATBOX WHETHER THE AMNZ IS BLACK OR GREEN.

- zenn

Feng shui people says: For those who are borned in the year of chicken and dog shall suffer a unlucky and chaotic life this 2008!




'A REALLY BIG SIGH'!! Not to say my life in the future would be any better,yet it became worst! For thee who I love is a worthless man with no guts! Her which practically ruined my life without any apology ! She which cant make her life easier for me and doesn't acknowledge any sense of awareness of hatred ! My past which leads to chaotic death for me! What did I do to deserve such pay?

• If they could understand how I feel!
• If they could help me in this fine deep shyt!
• If they could end this war for me!
• If they could realize whose in the wrong!
• If they could just pity a little bit for me!
• If they could just SAVE MY SOUL!

What I want is what I seek to happiness , and not just left stranded in a place full of sorrow!

If I am thee who decieve my self then I should take the pay with guts !

3 very FINE problem haunt my life without any mercy !

How I wish this could end !

If that someone could just command my wish , I hope it'll end my war with peace!

My soul which touches the deepest ocean and flows with bundle of joy!

xoxo,

Amanda Huang!